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    After Plan Z?

    Where does the climate movement go as dangers escalate, "campaigning space” is eroded, we’re exhausted and it feels like we are out of new ideas?



    Four years ago…

    In April 2022, I was arrested at a climate protest. In what was a month of high-profile scientific reports and stark statements about the “moral and economic madness” of wealthy countries pursuing new fossil fuels, the UK government had published an energy strategy setting out its intention to maximise the extraction of oil and gas from the North Sea. 


    We met in a cafe, where I awkwardly sipped a peppermint tea, wondering whether I’d regret taking on more liquid... Once dozens of other scientists had arrived, the dimly-lit basement now pretty cramped, it was time to go.  We stopped in a quiet alleyway to distribute lab coats, placards, posters and pots of wallpaper paste, attracting some understandably puzzled stares from construction workers. Next thing I remember we were rushing up to the energy department, then pasting giant pages of and quotes from some of the most consequential scientific reports of all time onto the glass front of the building.


    Eight of us superglued a hand to the glass. Why? The practical reason: to make us harder to remove, to make our protest and its message harder to ignore.  Symbolically, we were standing by the climate science the government seemed to be disregarding in its plans to allow oil companies extract “every last drop” of deadly fuel from beneath UK waters. But emotionally and personally… I did this because I felt desperate. I really didn’t know what else to do.  


    “It possibly looks extreme or crazy or a bit mad.  For me this is a plan Z.  Everything else has been tried.”  said my friend Stuart, stuck to the glass next to me.  Referring to the failure of decades of scientific research, communication and advocacy to drive anywhere near enough change via the “proper channels”, his words gave a name to a film that was made about our actions that day,  Plan Z: From Lab Coats to Handcuffs.


    The film

    Louisa Jones’ and Vlad Morozov’s short film about that day captures it far better than I ever could in words, not just what took place but also the motivations, the emotions, the community and the care behind our actions. It’s toured the UK and film festivals across Europe since it was released. For the past year it’s also been available online (on YouTube) where thousands of people have watched it. 

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    Some snapshots from Plan Z screenings and panels over the past two years

    I’ve been to about a dozen screenings, the most recent of which was at the British Science Festival in Southampton at the end of last month. This showing rounded off a two-year programme of events and discussions about the film, about climate protest and about scientists as activists. Each time I see the film, it takes me straight back to the surreal intensity of that day - Wednesday 13th April 2022 - one that’s etched into my memory, one that changed my life in multiple ways. So much so, that I’ve often found it pretty jarring to switch into communication mode to speak on panels immediately after it's screened. 


    Throughout these two years, the questions audiences put to us after the film have consistently been: 

    • about what happened next; 
    • about the increasing repression of protest in the UK;
    • about what we can do now at a time where climate impacts are on our doorsteps yet denial, delay, obstruction, misinformation, polarisation, fear and exhaustion stand in our way. 

    So, in the rest of this post, I’ll summarise my thoughts on each of these.

     


    What happened next

    Nine of us were arrested, loaded into police vans, and taken away to spend the next 24 hours in custody*. I wrote about this part of the story in my chapter of our book Scientists on Survival: Personal Stories of Climate Action. It was… strange. Exhausting, uncomfortable, sad, isolating, revealing of a policing system fraught with prejudice†, inconsistencies and power imbalances, but also punctuated with moments of unexpected humanity. 


    We were prosecuted, accused of “criminal damage” for the posters and people that had been stuck to the glass.  For what it’s worth, no damage was actually caused to the building - no trace of our action remained on those glass panels beyond our presence that day. Nonetheless, I think it was seven times in total we attended court. Even on a good day, procedures are simultaneously slow, confusing and chaotic.   Sometimes we waited around in overheating corridors only to be informed our case was no longer going to be heard that day. Scheduling conversations between court officials took hours. The CPS seemed to miss all their deadlines then would try to submit bizarre forms of ‘evidence’ last-minute. The prosecution argued that our actions were inherently ‘violent’ then showed footage and read statements that clearly demonstrated the opposite. It might have been comical were it not for the urgency of the underlying climate Emergency escalating day by day, nor for the thousands of cases - some with huge implications for the victims, defendants, families and communities involved -  waiting for their time in court.


    To cut a long story short, we were all acquitted. My trial group didn’t even have to speak in our own defence after the magistrates ruled we had “no case to answer”. In my handwritten notes from court I’ve quoted one of them stating as part of the verdict that our prosecution for this protest could be viewed as “disproportionate interference with [our] rights to freedom of assembly and freedom of expression”. These rights are meant to be protected by the European Convention on Human Rights (ECHR) and via its incorporation into UK law via the Human Rights Act. 


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    Freshly-acquitted scientists in October 2022


    The erosion of protest rights and campaigning ‘space’

    As we left court for the final time in late 2022 our barrister congratulated us on our “good character remaining intact” - a distinctly lawyery way of celebrating our avoidance of any criminal convictions. But had our protest or the trial taken place today in 2026, I suspect the outcome would have been very different.


    Firstly the laws have changed. Over the past four years the UK has introduced a slew of additional restrictions on protest, criminalising nonviolent tactics that have been used for centuries and imposing penalties widely described as repressive or draconian. To give just one relevant example, the 2023 Public Order Act made “locking on” - which would include attaching yourself to a building - an offence in itself in the context of a protest. It’s now punishable by up to six months in prison.  


    Secondly, how the courts treat protest cases has become progressively more unpredictable, with harsher sentences and sometimes extreme restrictions on defendants becoming commonplace.  This has included:

    • Legal defences disallowed. Defences based on principles such as necessity, proportionality and/or “reasonable excuse” - all of which we came prepared to argue - are often no longer available to defendants to use in similar protest cases.   
    • Judges barring defendants from explaining their motivations and beliefs, or telling juries that these should be considered irrelevant. In one case, two Insulate Britain campaigners were sent to prison for contempt of court for defying a judge’s instruction not to say “climate change” or “fuel poverty”.
    • Prison sentences of up to five years for activists accused of planning non-violent climate protests, and the use of remand (imprisonment before trial/conviction) becoming more common for peaceful protesters. 


    There is so much more I could say (some of which I've written about elsewhere) about how our rights to protest have been eroded, including via increased use of civil injunctions, repressive bail conditions, surveillance and harassment, pre-emptive policing and arrests… the list goes on. The combination of all of these has an undeniable “chilling effect”: I regularly hear people express wanting to participate in protests but understandably staying away because they aren’t sure what is and isn’t within the law, they don’t trust how the police will behave, or they fear the consequences of being arrested - lawfully or otherwise. 


    But this all just one visible component of a much more insidious stifling of peaceful activism and campaigning happening here in the UK and I’m sure far beyond it too. At a recent event that brought together a range of organisations involved in environmental and human rights advocacy, equality, anti-racism, refugee support, poverty action and more, I heard campaigners, civil servants and charity employees speak about how much harder it has become for them to work impactfully. They spoke about how funders and institutions are jumpy about supporting causes that until recently were relatively uncontroversial. Many had been targeted with threats, abuse, malicious lawsuits, or ‘weaponised admin’‡.  Media channels that were once key to amplifying their work and messages had rapidly become hellish, or just ineffective. Some have found themselves censored by managers and collaborators, or would knowingly censor themselves to avoid conflict§. All of this has happened in the space of a few years, and seems to be getting worse, fast.  



    Meeting the moment?

    The combination of intensifying climate breakdown with the wilful blunting of the tools we have to respond to it terrifies me. And I know I’m not alone.  Hard-won successes for the climate movement are now in danger of being - or already have been - reversed. In the UK, the government once again looks set to license new oil and gas fields.  Climate scientists’ warnings and robust dismantling of fossil fuel industry lines are falling on deaf or unwilling ears. The stakes are even higher than they were four years ago, but so too are the personal risks involved in challenging or disrupting powerful vested interests . On top of this, the capacity and effort required to do this effectively - and relatively safely - has increased significantly. 


    It’s little wonder so many of us are feeling exhausted and disempowered. There are huge imbalances in power and risk, and these tend not to play out in favour of there being fairer societies and habitable Earth for them to exist upon. That balance can - and must - shift. But it can only do so if large numbers of us, especially those with comparatively more resources, influence and protection from harm, decide we have a role to play in improving our collective predicament, even if we know that the best “solutions” are no longer within reach. 


    Recently, I’ve been finding tentatively-renewed energy in spaces where different people and organisations across movements and types of approach are coming together to confront this reality. And whilst I don’t have “the answer” to what needs to happen now, here are some of the insights I think I’ve gained from those discussions and from my own experiences: 


    🐙 No “one thing” will “work”:  We need a diversity of complementary, creative approaches to problems as massive and complex as climate breakdown, systemic injustice and the erosion of our rights. Each of us brings different strengths, assets, constraints and vulnerabilities which will make us more or less suited to different forms of action. 


    🦉 Knowing our rights and how to advocate for them is becoming increasingly essential.  Part of the “chilling effect” of repressive laws and restrictions is that it creates fear about speaking up or taking action in ways that are still within “the rules”. Knowing what those rules are and sharing that knowledge as widely as possible can help us plan our actions as safely as possible and support others to feel more confident in joining us.  Where we can confidently identify, communicate and/or challenge abuses of power, for example by police or employers, we are better equipped to protect ourselves and one another from them‖. 


     🤹 Being strategic with our capacity sometimes means doing “less”. Kind people have often cautioned me “it's a marathon not a sprint” when I’ve been in “action mode” for prolonged spells and the impacts are starting to show. For a long time this kind of advice grated, because I felt like it was undermining the urgency: “what if we need to be sprinting this particular marathon?”, I’d usually push back. But what I now understand they were trying to warn me, was that consistently exceeding your own limits can be destructive and is often at odds with sustaining effective action. It is not an easy balance to strike, but deciding not to do something that seems like it could be worthwhile can be the strategic choice, provided we are being honest with ourselves about our motivations and capacities. 


    🫶 The power of community, care and collective action. Very few people have ever, or will ever, significantly change the course of our societies by themselves. Even where we have figureheads attached to great achievements, they are usually part of a much bigger ecosystem that has enabled those successes. My maybe-naive-maybe-a-bit-arrogant “lone crusades” have invariably been less effective, less sustainable and far less enjoyable than the campaigns, actions and projects I’ve worked on with others. The relationships forged in the process have been so rich and so supportive: they have sustained and informed so much of what


    🐝  That I won’t regret trying, even if we don’t “succeed” in obvious ways. My friend Shana’s words in the final essay of our book are often ones I've quoted at the end of screenings and on panels. I hope it'll be clear why. 👇

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    * Or more - one scientist was denied bail (on spurious grounds) and spent several days in custody. 

    † We were mostly treated with basic dignity by the police but we witnessed far less respectful, more aggressive treatment of others less privileged than ourselves. 

    ‡ This included, for example, public bodies being deluged with Freedom of Information requests designed to drain resources rather than to increase transparency and accountability genuinely in the public interest.

    § Contrary to what I‘d like to believe about myself, I realise I self-censor regularly in my work (as well as outside of it).  I really hesitated to share this post, particularly at a time where I’m actively looking for jobs/contracts, because I know organisations are increasingly wary of being perceived as “activist” (even if their stated reason for existing is to push for some form of progressive change).  In multiple projects and roles I’ve been involved in, we have (strategically?) shied away from talking directly about extremely important, relevant issues of systemic injustice, fearing that if we openly acknowledge these issues we will be immediately dismissed by influential people/groups. 

    ‖ For protest rights information in England and Wales, see the Green and Black Cross’s guides and trainings 


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    Finding work in a world on fire

    This morning when looking at job listings I came across an ”Environmental Scientist" freelance role - a  relatively rare sighting at the moment.  Clicking through to find out more, I then read the role was to find factual errors in AI-written science content, and write “clear feedback” for the models churning it out. When I looked up the company behind the ad, one of the first results was an article titled: “Laid-off lawyers, history PhDs, and scientists are now part of a miserable gig economy in which they’re teaching AI how to do their old jobs” (paywalled article). Months into the job hunt, nothing about that headline felt surprising. 


    It’s not long ago that I didn’t have to search for work - I was fortunate enough that plenty of it came to me. When I left academia and started freelancing in 2024 I quickly found my time filled with paid projects and collaborations that felt positive, meaningful and a good use of my skills. But over the past year or so, the shifts have felt dramatic



    Opportunities degrading

    It’s no secret that the ‘job market’ right now is tough. In the UK there are over 1 million young people not in employment, education or training, and about 2 million unemployed people (and many times more besides) actively looking for work. Meanwhile, the numbers and types of jobs available aren’t matching the demand.  Many roles are also short term, casualised or otherwise precarious.


    This decade promised a boom in “green” jobs, and it’s not hard to find openings that are very much styled as such.  But scratch beneath the surface of the advertisements and many-if-not-most aren’t exactly propelling us towards a sustainable and ethical future. 


    Page one of the “jobs that match your profile” section on LinkedIn right now shows me:

    🔥 Community & Education Officer… for the UK’s biggest carbon emitter 

    ✈️ Environmental Consultant… to support a company’s “growing aviation business” 

    🫘 Writer/Journalist covering inequality and poverty… unpaid, two days per week.

    🤖 Multiple roles training and expanding the use of AI (like the “Environmental Scientist” role above)


    Alongside this I’m getting plenty of targeted advertising for unspecified career opportunities at oil companies* (and a few times for the military or the Metropolitan police). Let’s just say the roles out there and how I’d want to be applying my skills often aren’t a “good fit”, and I’m fairly confident that I wouldn’t make it as far as the interview if I applied. 


    When there’s so much that we actually need to do to spread reliable information, protect our planetary health, transform our systems, and adapt to an increasingly unstable world, it’s alarming how few-and-far-between the roles aligned with doing this seem to be right now. 


    

    Hiring procedures

    This is not to say that there aren’t great-looking roles out there and positively influential organisations eager to recruit. But funding across many parts of the environmental sector has been drying up and there is high demand for any positions advertised. 


    Some application platforms will tell you how many people have read the job advert and/or how many applications have been submitted.  And it's not uncommon to be amongst thousands of applicants, even for quite specialised roles. 


    I feel for hiring teams having to filter and evaluate so many applications. I can also understand how such demand breeds processes that are less kind to applicants. These include:

    • 📋 Bespoke processes and complex forms. Gone are the days of firing off a standard CV and tweaked cover letters to several roles: each now asks for different information in different formats. I did one form that took 3 hours to complete even after I’d drafted the responses to the long-answer questions. 
    • 🤖 AI filtering or even AI interviews.  I now write applications knowing that there is a strong chance it won’t be a human who ‘decides’ whether I progress to the next round of the process.  
    • 🏋️ Work as part of the application. A task-based component to an application makes sense for a lot of roles and I’m seeing this become a lot more common. However it can really add to the time and effort required for an application. In the (rare!) best cases, tasks are paid/compensated as work… in the worst I have or wondered whether a real job opening even exists and the tasks are cynically used for free labour. 
    • ❌ No capacity for feedback. Rejections are almost always accompanied by a request that applicants not inquire further about them. †


    Looking for work and being judged by prospective employers, funders or collaborators has never been fun, but it feels far more gruelling and impersonal than it ever has before.  I’ve been selective and only applied for roles where I meet all the criteria.  Each application is different, but they usually take me a day or two. Over the past few months I’ve applied for about 35 roles and have yet to progress beyond the first round. 


    

    What now?

    Knowing that freelancing would have peaks and troughs, I made preparations for periods without regular work. The reserves from last year’s projects alongside short term projects have allowed me to cover the time I’ve been using to apply for jobs this year so far.  It’s been stressful, haphazard and insecure‡ but it’s been manageable (and I have loved some of the projects I’ve been trusted to do). But I’m now at the end of those reserves and I’m not sure what to do.  


    I didn’t write this just to whinge… I wrote it to explain how it probably feels to many people who are trying to find meaningful work in an increasingly hostile job/funding landscape.  My experiences are far from unique, and if anyone reading this is relating to them then I hope you know that you’re not alone, nor can you measure your worth by how easy you're finding it to land decent-quality, paid work.  I also wrote this to elicit any ideas and advice that might be out there. 


    Specifically I’m looking for insights into:


    • How and where to search for opportunities. I’m on a range of job boards and mailing lists, and friends have been great at passing on listings they happen across, but are there other routes I might not have thought of? 
    • How to look for independent funding.  I’m really enthusiastic to create the kind of opportunities that I wish existed. I made a few applications to funding pots but didn’t get anywhere, so I’d be keen to hear ideas about potential funders and advice on how to increase the ‘fundability’ of proposals. 
    • How I present my work and approach.  Are there aspects of this that might be standing in the way of good opportunities?  Are there compromises I might want to consider? Are there skills I’d do well to invest in? 
    • Connections and support that might help this process along. I’m most interested in collaborative projects that use science, research and/or communication skills to help build a more sustainable and resilient future, but open to broadening beyond that. 


    

    * My least favourite but most-consistently shown to me on social media earlier this year highlighted many ways Shell provides careers for women in STEM!

    † One thing I think has improved in recent years is that I do generally receive a response to applications (rather than just having to assume silence means rejection).

    ‡ Not helped by several instances of not getting paid (sometimes for reasons beyond clients’/employers control)


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    Feeling AI-lienated …. and what we can do about it

    It's been more than a year since I first drafted a post trying to express why the rapid integration of AI across work and society - and especially its normalisation in environmental communication - feels so eerie and uncomfortable. Maybe I didn't finish or publish it back then because I was quietly hopeful that the hype wouldn't last or that the loudest voices would be more critical of the 'AI boom' (or maybe more aligned with my own perspective on it)...


    But I’m writing this now for three practical reasons: 

    1. 📋 To summarise the main concerns I have about ubiquitous, unregulated AI becoming so quickly integrated across society with the idea that short summaries of the issues in each area would be a useful to anyone - either as an overview or as a starting point for deeper research or communication.
    2. 🤖 To address the dominant pro-AI arguments I’m now hearing all over the place - from my work contexts to chats with strangers at weddings in the hope this can contribute to us all having more constructive, critical conversations about AI, however much we have or have not embraced it.
    3. 💭 To share my approach to AI to explain my stance to people interested in working together, and to highlight some of the actions we can all take to challenge and limit the harm AI is contributing to.


    … and also for a more emotional reason:

    • 🫀 Seeing so much pro-AI content - and a wide acceptance of it - is really, really getting me down. If this does nothing else but show to somebody out there that they're not alone in feeling concern, frustration, confusion (amongst other emotions), it will have been worthwhile.


    AI is affecting me personally and professionally. Over the past year alone I’ve seen my own writing used to train models that have then ‘replaced’ the paid roles I used to feel confident I was having a positive impact doing (and used to be able to rely on for the rent!). I’ve seen a massive downturn in the quality and availability of writing and research roles, with an increasing proportion of opportunities in sustainability explicitly prioritising the use of AI within them. I'm fairly sure I’ve received AI-generated rejection emails off the back of job applications I’m not convinced a human ever read. Where I have managed to pick up work, I’ve sometimes been given frustrating AI-written tasks that don’t make sense or aren’t possible to complete due to ‘hallucinations’ within them. I’ve been asked to test supposedly 'groundbreaking' AI platforms that do nothing to address any of the major problems I come up against in sustainability communication or action. 


    But this is much bigger than me. The rise of AI affects all of us, especially if we care about the Earth remaining habitable and want to see fair, equitable societies existing upon it. 



    What do you mean by AI?

    Artificial Intelligence (AI) is used to refer to a whole host of different computational systems that process lots of data. Throughout the 2010s, most of what I was hearing about as “AI” was in academic meetings, usually where researchers were using machine learning approaches to discover patterns hidden deep within large datasets.  Those ‘traditional’ systems were (and still are) doing things that humans could not do without them, for example finding tiny regions of similarity in the medical scans of thousands of patients with the same disease and applying that learning to inform the diagnosis of others.


    What we have seen recently is a huge explosion of AI with a much broader scope: replicating - or attempting to replicate - human reasoning, decision-making or creativity for tasks that humans could already do without it. It's these applications I will be referring to when I talk about “AI” here, primarily ‘smart’ tools and features such as AI agents, chatbots, image/video generators etc that generate ‘content’ upon command.

    


    What's triggering my AI alarm?

    👣 AI has an enormous, direct environmental footprint… which is increasing rapidly

    It could not be more urgent that we slash greenhouse gas emissions, protect freshwater supplies and move towards much more regenerative systems, but right now AI is dragging us in the opposite direction. [click for detail]

    The lack of detail and transparency in reporting makes it very difficult to put precise figures to the impacts, but the best estimates I could find indicate that AI systems in 2025:

    1. directly drove carbon emissions at a similar rate to the whole of Greece or Chile, or New York City (~30–80 million tonnes); and
    2. directly drove water consumption on a par with global annual consumption of bottled water, or the entire water footprint of Iceland (~300-800 billion litres). 


    This is rising fast with AI-induced water consumption and carbon emissions from data centres alone projected to double - if not quadruple - over the next four years. In the UK the climate impacts of AI datacentres were dramatically underestimated, with recent government data suggesting they could be ten times higher than previously calculated. These could add over 100 million tonnes to UK CO2 emissions over the next decade alone, which is hard to see as compatible with the UK’s legally binding commitments to cut approximately this amount from its annual emissions every five years. 


    Despite talk of their commitment to sustainability, around 5 years on from making pledges to radically cut CO2 emissions, tech companies’ footprints look worse than ever as they pour resources into AI. Analysis of tech giants’ self-reported data showed: “Google’s emissions jumped nearly 50%. Amazon’s rose by 33%, Microsoft’s more than 23% and Meta’s more than 60%.” 


    AI-driven electricity demand is serving to maintain and even increase the demand for fossil fuels and other destructive, unsustainable forms of energy generation. This has already meant the maintenance of coal plants where they were otherwise due to be phased out, more gas plants, more opportunities for unsustainable biomass projects, and ultimately even more profit for polluters at the expense of a habitable planet for us all. 


    The additional water stress caused by AI data centres is about the last thing we need amidst the absolute necessity to protect freshwater supplies in a heating world. But nonetheless it’s already leading to restrictions in households’ access to water, contributing to ‘mega-droughts’, and devastating ecosystems.


    Impacts linked to AI data centres and the wider supply chains span much further too: exacerbating air pollution, affecting land use, driving e-waste and the harms caused by mining for minerals to name a few. And this is before the effects of what AI is used to do are even factored in (see below).


    💥 How AI is used: Fuelling consumption & facilitating escalations in disinformation, surveillance and violence.

    Technology itself is not inherently ‘bad’, but within our current societal context it is being leveraged to do incredibly destructive things with less care and conscience. [click for detail]

    Whilst there are lots of possible positive applications for them, most of what I’m seeing AI tools used for is in assisting us to continue carrying out all the harms we’ve been wreaking on ourselves and the world around us… only now we can do so with more speed, less thought, less effort and often more error (see below). I think this is what has saddened me the most. 


    It’s turbocharging overconsumption when we are already beyond the limits where our systems can recover from it. It’s being used to promote dangerous political agendas, as a tool for manipulation and misinformation. It’s facilitating mass surveillance at a time where authoritarianism is on the rise. Amidst high and escalating global tensions, we are seeing its creeping use in warfare (for example in autonomous weapons).  It’s burning us out, isolating us and further dividing us when we need to be connecting with one another and working together.

    💰 Stark inequity in who benefits, who loses out, and who is exploited along the way.

    Highly extractive and unjust processes are routinely used to build, train and operate AI models. This primarily benefits a comparatively small group of already privileged, powerful people. [click for detail]

    Enormous investment in AI has made a small number of people extraordinarily wealthy (or even more extraordinarily so) but will benefit ‘trickle down’ to the rest of us? And could that benefit possibly justify the social and environmental harms we are seeing? In the absence of very careful planning, requiring significant involvement of and leadership from workforces, new technologies have tended to benefit the most powerful at the expense of the majority. What we are seeing right now with AI shows no sign of bucking that trend. 


    Training the models that underpin major AI platforms has required massive amounts of data, much of it taken without consent or compensation made to the creators of that data. Adding insult to injury, this kind of “brazen theft” is undermining the ability of writers and artists to make a living. [As a result a whole host of plaintiffs including authors, publishers and artists have resorted to suing Meta, Open AI, Anthropic and others for copyright infringement].


    Less well-publicised are the stories of how the proliferation of AI systems and infrastructure is fuelling exploitative working practices in some of the poorest communities in the world. This includes low paid, precarious work, which can be physically dangerous, mentally traumatising or both (examples in mineral extraction and content moderation). 

    ❌ AI tools replicate bias and make serious mistakes.

    Underlying prejudice and authentic-looking ‘hallucinations’ plague AI outputs. Those biases and errors have real-world consequences. [click for detail]

    The large language models (LLMs) underlying text-based AI tools (such as chatbots) are probability-based: they predict the next words based on everything that’s been used to train them. This makes them very prone to reproducing and reinforcing the underlying biases of their training data, and liable to create entirely fictional statements presented as if they’re factual . 


    Far from being neutral information sources, AI tools have shown covert racial bias, gender bias, and a shift towards the political right. Since the use of AI has become so widespread, this is already widening equality gaps, contributing to discrimination in hiring procedures, policing, healthcare provision and even medical diagnosis to name a few. 


    And whilst tools and their training might be getting more sophisticated, their outputs are still a long way from being reliably accurate. A recent study led by the BBC highlighted that AI assistants “routinely misrepresent news content no matter which language, territory, or AI platform is tested”, with “significant” issues in nearly half of the responses studied.  


    Errors and ‘hallucinations’ like this are misleading and risky for users of AI tools: they stand to degrade the quality, trustworthiness and overall value of work that has been produced using it. And whether we choose to use those tools or not, we are all at risk from the impacts of their mistakes.  We already know that AI-created falsehoods are making their way into everything from health and wellbeing advice to evidence at criminal trials. The consequences can be extremely serious: for example, errors in facial recognition are known to have led to numerous wrongful arrests - and lengthy imprisonment - of people who could not possibly have committed the crimes they are accused of.


    Despite safeguards, AI tools such as chatbots have been directly linked to severe mental health outcomes and dozens of tragic deaths. As their use increases we can expect to see more cases where they cause serious harm to users, override human instructions or are used maliciously. 

    🧠  Rapid adoption of AI may be degrading our human abilities and accelerating the commodification of 'intelligence'.

    By outsourcing learning and communication tasks to AI, we run the risk of losing the cognitive and interpersonal skills essential for addressing the complex and escalating crises we face. [click for detail]

    Emerging experimental evidence indicates that interacting with AI tools might progressively and rapidly undermine our ability to learn effectively. It stands to degrade our analytical, creative, relational and critical thinking skills, contributing to reliance on technologies we don’t fully understand… and don’t have free, equal nor guaranteed access to. 


    Earlier this year the CEO of OpenAI (the company that owns chat GPT) said publicly: “We see a future where intelligence is a utility, like electricity or water, and people buy it from us on a meter”.  That future - one that sounds deeply dystopian to me - is much more likely to be enabled the more we offload tasks to AI that we could otherwise do (or learn to do) independently. 

    👀 A worrying lack of oversight, foresight, regulation and consequence for unethical practices. 

    Swept up in the hype around AI, corporate interests continue to be prioritised over public protection. [click for detail]

    With the rapid pace of AI integration and with millions in corporate money being ploughed into pro-AI lobbying, it’s perhaps unsurprising that regulation of AI has been pretty limited. Where governments have legislated on AI, policies often explicitly emphasised enabling “innovation” over proceeding with caution. This has come at the expense of preventing harm and upholding other ethical principles (see above). 


    Transparency and accountability are severely lacking across the sector, all whilst companies are building increasingly more complex, more autonomous AI systems without credible plans to prevent or deal with catastrophic outcomes.  


    The loudest narratives

    Despite all of these causes for concern and caution, we are now exposed to a range of arguments, often made uncritically, about why we should embrace AI’s increasing entanglement into our lives. These narratives are used to shut down challenges to the rapid normalisation and pervasive integration of AI across society; they’re being used to delay action to regulate or even properly discuss how and where AI is used. 


    It can feel exhausting and alienating to be on the receiving end of these narratives and to have very legitimate concerns be dismissed. But we don’t have to do this alone. So, in the interest of sharing some learning from my (often failed) attempts to have more constructive conversations about AI, here are the most common discourses I’m brushing up against, alongside how I’ve been responding.


    Note: One provocation to anyone whose instinct is to dismiss the concerns above or the responses below, is to ask who benefits the most when we do so: who are these pro-AI narratives really serving?

    Pro-AI narrative

    Response

    👣“AI can be used to help the environment”

    ‼️ AI fuels environmental destruction far, far more than it contributes to addressing it.  


    The vast majority of AI use is not being directed towards protecting people or the rest of Nature. Instead it is being used predominantly in ways that drive up already-unsustainable fuel burning, water extraction and consumption behaviours. (see above). A recent analysis of claims that AI would be of ‘net climate benefit’ found that the vast majority were unsubstantiated. It also “did not uncover a single example where consumer generative systems such as ChatGPT, Gemini, or Copilot were leading to a material, verifiable, and substantial level of emissions reductions”


    If we want to see these powerful tools and resources used for overall environmental benefit, we need to push for very careful evaluation and regulation of AI use, rather than accept or support the unrestricted expansion and integration of AI across society.

    🧠 “AI is making complex knowledge more accessible”

    ‼️Right now LLMs are too error-prone to disseminate trustworthy information and are compromising our ability to learn critical skills.  


    Mistakes and biases are extremely prevalent and can have serious consequences.  There is also a growing body of evidence to suggest AI tools diminish the cognitive and interpersonal abilities of users, making us progressively more dependent on them for tasks we could otherwise manage competently ourselves. Far from democratising knowledge, tech giants stand to gain significant control over access to AI tools and the kind of ‘intelligence’ they may unlock (see above). 


    With disinformation already such a huge problem, the last thing we need is unregulated AI turbo-charging it, or otherwise adding to confusion and misunderstanding. 

    When I’m speaking to scientists and academics I often emphasise other ways we could (and arguably should) be contributing to making information and understanding more accessible.  This includes communicating our work in more inclusive and public ways as well as pushing to remove barriers to and inequalities in education.

    💼 “It’s good for jobs and the economy”

    ‼️ Which jobs/sectors are benefitting from the rise of AI… and at whose expense?


    This is an industry built on extractive, exploitative and destructive practices that has yet to see proportionate or equitable value realised (see above). 


    It also seems quite unclear whether the AI industry is itself profitable, or whether most companies are particularly benefitting from using it. To realise tangible benefits that AI-enabled technologies could hold the most promise for, “a fundamental reorientation of the industry” is likely necessary: essentially this would mean it refocussing on systems that are able to generate reliable information for specific practical applications (rather than those than attempt replicate or replace human speech, creativity and interaction).

    🏆 “AI helps me do my important work better/more competitively” and/or “We will be left behind if we don’t embrace it”

    ‼️ Leaning on AI can stand in the way of us learning and maintaining the skills and confidence that enable us to be creative and effective.  


    If we outsource tasks to AI, we are less likely to develop or sustain a deep or intuitive understanding of what we are doing. This can make it harder for us to notice errors or to troubleshoot when things go wrong, and also leaves us vulnerable when we don’t have access to the tools e.g. if we are ‘offline’ or in the event tools get withdrawn or heavily monetised (see above). 


    For many people right now, using AI may, on balance, be contributing to - rather than relieving - overload and burnout.  And for businesses/individuals selling creative work, I’ve asked why customers or clients would choose to buy something from a third party that they could create themselves with similar AI tools.


    Critical thinking, creative and interpersonal skills may well become especially desirable in the age of AI ‘slop’. Rather than going along with the widespread adoption of AI, it could be more strategic for us to focus on identifying and investing in the distinctly-human capabilities that make us each uniquely valuable.

    🤖 “It’s inevitable”  i.e. The rise of AI is now unstoppable so the best thing to do is to [be quiet about the problems and] embrace it.

    ‼️ The unregulated, unrestricted integration of AI throughout our lives and systems is not inevitable.  We have agency and collective power to steer how the development and adoption of AI proceeds.


    The technology is already with us, but there are plenty of possible futures for it.  We do not have to embrace it uncritically. We can choose to make a fuss about the damage being caused and the risks being taken. We can stand in the way of AI-enabled harm continuing and expanding.  And we can advocate for effective regulation that makes it more possible for AI applications with genuine potential to be beneficial for all of us to emerge from the noise.


    What can we do about AI?

    1. ⁉️ Communicate & Question: It can feel from all the advertising, LinkedIn chat etc like everybody is on board with it, but the more I talk with people the more I realise that there is widespread concern and skepticism about the AI boom. I also think that the rise of AI will continue to gather pace and wreak havoc in its wake if we don’t challenge the myths and the hype that are being touted. We don’t have to be experts to that bold claims are evidenced, or to probe about how much attention and consideration is being given to the very real harms and risks.
    2. ❎ Refrain or Abstain where we can: We can each be critical and considerate about whether our own use of AI tools aligns with our values and/or is worth any of the negative impacts it contributes to. Personally I avoid knowingly using it, supporting it and feeding it… I don’t need to use it and I haven’t found a good enough reason for me to start incorporating it into anything I’m doing. This doesn’t have to mean ignoring it nor being completely closed-minded to any potentially positive applications. 
    3. ✊ Campaign & Resist: We are most effective when we work together, as evidenced by the groundswell of grassroots organising against AI data centre expansions that threaten to drain the water, pollute the air and compromise power supplies for communities around the world.  There are broader campaigns gathering momentum too and they are undoubtedly looking for more support. Some examples are Pause AI, Pull the Plug & Stop Killer Robots.



    Thoughts, suggestions or recommended resources? Let me know and I'll include them here.

    In the meantime you may be interested in John Oliver's recent segment about AI chatbots, want to follow Ketan Joshi for commentary or find this massive list of articles useful.




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    The cover star for this blog post is Mavis, a mostly-blind guinea pig who loves lettuce but is alarmed by many things including (but by no means limited to) the rapid adoption of AI, especially if this could  disrupt or threaten supplies of lettuce.

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    Changing mindsets, not just lightbulbs

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    📣 Published today:

    "The Sustainability of Science: How Science Impacts the Environment, and What Can Be Done" a Royal Society of Chemistry book, edited by Dr Martin Farley.


    I wrote the following essay as part of its final chapter, which addresses the wider role of science and scientists in climate action.


    The essay "Changing mindset, not just lightbulbs" is reproduced here with permission under the terms of a Creative Commons CC-BY-NC-ND 4.0 licence


    At the time writing in 2023, from my then position as a postdoctoral research scientist based in a university, I introduced the chapter and my motivations for writing it as follows:

    

    “UK universities and research institutes have been centres of my own education and work for half my lifetime. Since 2019, I’ve tried to balance a scientific research career with communicating and acting on the warnings of climate and environmental scientists. In that time I have encountered significant resistance to the idea that scientists and their institutions can – and should – use our privileged positions to contribute to rapid systemic change. I often hear that something else is more important, it’s too difficult, or it’s somehow not our place to try. By distilling some of what I’ve learned as part of the scientist/activist community, I hope to counter some of those narratives and motivate others to embrace pushing for environmental and social justice as part of the role of 21st century scientists."


    

    Matching Rhetoric with Action


    Centres of scientific research – such as universities and research institutes – exist to generate and disseminate knowledge often with the stated aim of improving lives and societies. These institutions often pride themselves on being host to, and developers of, thousands of minds trained to understand and communicate complex problems and innovate to solve them. But is this what the scientific institutions of today are really prioritising or achieving? And are they responding effectively to the escalating threats of climate, ecological and societal breakdown?


    Over recent years many institutions have made public declarations of a state of Climate Emergency and announced ambitions to be part of solutions. But how much evidence is there of these same institutions realigning their practices and priorities proportionate with emergency action? Working in a place like this you may well have seen stickers reminding you to turn equipment off, a reusable cup scheme, awards for sustainable practice on the walls. But has your daily reality noticeably changed? Is what you research and how you do so largely similar to how it was before environmental sustainability was part of the discourse? Have you and your colleagues received any training to help you understand the scale of the biospheric emergency we are part of, and what we can do about it? Are conversations about how our academic systems can/should/must respond in a rapidly changing world part of your experience at all?


    How can the transformative potential of science and scientists be unlocked? Institutions’ current modes of operation tend to stifle the changes needed to do so, but it is also within their power to facilitate and nurture cultural shifts. This needs to go far beyond reminders to turn off equipment and the elimination of single-use coffee cups; true sustainability in research requires seeing the big picture and embracing commensurate systemic change in how we work and what we value. This will mean realignment of the priority areas of research and teaching, a more holistic approach to mitigating the harms caused by our activities (explored in other sections of the book) and also looking to expand our conception of the institute’s role – acting as a hub for collaboration, a resource for wider communities and a fertile ground for empowering advocates and change-makers.



    Scientists’ Privilege, Power and Responsibility to Accelerate Systemic Change


    At its core the job of a scientist or academic is to pursue knowledge that enables us to understand specific elements of the world we are part of. Inevitably this involves evaluating and integrating information from a range of sources and disciplines, distilling what we learn into messages and principles that can be usefully shared. As such we have much of the expertise needed to comprehend and communicate the threats that all life and societies now face. When scientists publicly sound the alarm, or otherwise act to address the biospheric crises, we can be powerful messengers and advocates because of the position of trust and/or authority that is often afforded to us. We can find that our words and actions have a wider reach and a greater resonance as scientists than they would do otherwise. We might find we have greater access to platforms of communication, and that our taking action lends legitimacy to environmental movements that can suffer from unhelpful stereotyping about who it is that cares and participates.


    Scientists have been warning for decades that human actions are driving irreversible and escalating climate and biodiversity threats. Could, and should, the wider scientific community be mobilising as a result, showing solidarity with the scientists who have raised alarm, and acting on the basis of the findings of our colleagues around the world? Can we expect these warnings to be listened to if we do not? Do we have greater responsibility to do so, given our privileged position to be able to understand these complex crises and our power to contribute to systemic change? What does it mean for our own role, the impact of our work and the existence of the structures that allow us to do scientific research if we do not see the kind of transformative action that is needed to protect societies as we know them from collapse? After all, there’s “no research on a dead planet”.



    Scientific Institutions as Hubs for Environmental Learning and Communication


    To respond proportionately to the climate & ecological emergency, institutions must do much more than replace lightbulbs and nudge their employees to make small behavioural adjustments. By taking a more systemic view, we can see that there are many more-impactful actions open to scientific institutions (summarised in Figure 1). Institutions and their funders need to turn their attention towards what research areas they prioritise and whether those make sense in the context of the biospheric emergency. In early 2020, scientists across many disciplines were rapidly re-mobilised in response to the Covid-19 pandemic.* Can we build on that experience to support the realignment of scientific research focus, centring the pursuit of the knowledge needed for societies to mitigate and adapt to climate and ecological breakdown? Key to achieving this will be institutional support for researchers to learn about the threats we face and – informed by that knowledge – apply our skills in new areas. Institutions, many of which are publicly funded, could also be playing a much more public role in supporting societal responses. This includes opening their doors to, supporting, learning from, collaborating, communicating, and sharing resources with local communities, under-represented groups and grassroots movements. Importantly, institutes stand to hugely increase their societal impact by cultivating conditions where their members are encouraged and empowered to be visible and effective advocates for environmental education and action.


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    Figure 1: Actions scientific research institutes can take to enable transformative change in the age of climate and ecological breakdown.

    

    

    Collective Action by Scientists Holds Unrealised Potential to Accelerate Systemic Change


    As individuals subject to the specific pressures of academic research careers, pushing the structures we operate within to improve can often feel frustrating and futile. Whilst there is much we can do as individuals to challenge harmful practices, signpost better ones and lead by example with our own choices (see Figure 2), we are more effective when we organise! Joining or forming climate action groups and unions can enable us to amplify calls for systemic change whilst reducing the work required and/or risk inherent in doing so. Collective action also creates communities that are ripe for learning, connection, and support. As scientists we can play valuable roles in the wider environmental movement, providing and receiving evidence and education, acting as trusted messengers and contributing to building fairer, more resilient alternative systems. As threats to a liveable future mount rapidly, what are we waiting for?


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    Figure 2: Actions research scientists can take to be part of transformative change in the age of climate and ecological breakdown.”


    *I was one of these scientists…within weeks of the pandemic’s spread in the UK my biologist colleagues and I found ourselves studying the SARS-CoV2 virus, designing and running testing pipelines, communicating with the public, health providers and politicians and more. This was supported – and often celebrated – by our employers, funders and government.

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    Are scientific institutions failing us?

    Reflections on an evening at the Royal Society


    “Responsible science activism” was the topic of discussion at a Foundation for Science and Technology event at the Royal Society in London this week. Three scientist activists - Dr Charlie Gardner, Prof Jeff Waage and myself - were invited to share the motivations behind our actions, setting out our perspectives on how the scientific community can respond effectively to the escalating Emergency and why it is vital that we do. The challenges, comments and questions that followed ranged from constructive, thoughtful, insightful to troubling and harmful. Constraints of the format meant that we couldn’t examine more than a few there and then....so I’d like to take the opportunity to share some reflections here now. 


    The harmful narratives


    Within the walls of this 365 year old institution, with all its grandeur and prestige, it was no surprise to be met with some hostility having challenged the ‘established’ way of being a scientist through our activism. Whilst we acknowledged the value of the ‘traditional’ routes for scientists to engage with politicians and the wider public, we know that on their own they’ve been insufficient to drive the kind of change necessary to prevent the existential danger every person and every species now faces. So the question is what do we do now? How does the scientific community’s approach need to evolve and expand to inform and energise a society-wide Emergency response at a time this is so desperately needed?


    I remember how deeply uncomfortable it felt years ago grappling not just with how serious a predicament humanity is in, but also with how profoundly that changed how I felt about my own achievements, priorities and ambitions especially in relation to a scientific career that formed such a strong part of my identity. So I can empathise with a broad spectrum of defensive reactions. But however charitable I try to be, the tone of some of what was levelled against scientist activism and environmental action more broadly at this event has added to my frustration and disillusionment with our institutions. 


    I had expected plenty of critique about the role and perception of scientists as activists, but I was less prepared (and more alarmed) to notice the prevalence of recognisable ‘discourses of delay’: narratives leveraged - knowingly or unwittingly - as reasons not to act robustly to stave off climate, ecological and consequent societal collapse.

    These included:


    ❌ Deflecting responsibility.

    We heard politics and voting framed as the most (or potentially only) effective way to bring about change, with sweeping assertions made about the actions and priorities of the wider public e.g. that they “vote against the interests of younger people” and more generally that climate action is unpopular and thus unachievable. Even if this were true (which it isn’t*), perceived apathy and lack of care by others is no justification for replicating this ourselves, especially as scientists who are in a prime, privileged and trusted position to recognise the severity of the issues, communicate them effectively, and act constructively, bravely and creatively in response.


    ❌ Casting doubt on the urgent need for transformative action.

    At points I really wondered whether some of the senior figures who spoke had anything close to a broad and up-to-date knowledge of the science underlying the Emergency. We heard arguments often made in favour of fossil fuel use that made me wonder whether their proponents even knew how far beyond safe limits we already are, let alone what it means for our near-term survival that heating and its impacts have accelerated and will continue to do so especially now tipping points have been crossed. Our arguments as to why we view it as is proportionate and effective for scientists to take bolder, more vigorous action were dismissed quite casually; the vibe I felt emanating from the more vocal members of the scientific establishment was dispassionate and complacent, entirely misaligned with the enormity of the danger.


    ❌ Emphasising potential costs of action disproportionately in the context of the hugely higher cost of continued delay. Incredibly, “intergenerational equity” was seemingly used as a reason not to pour resources into rapid decarbonisation, positioning action taken to protect future generations as incompatible with meeting the needs of people alive today. Were it not the case that a rapid worldwide transition to renewables is now considered feasible and highly cost effective, or were it not the case that energy efficiency, pollution reduction and nature restoration come with substantial health and wellbeing benefits, this still wouldn’t be a defensible position when millions are already experiencing the devastating, avoidable impacts of a lack of Emergency mitigation and adaptation.**


    ❌ Defeatism dressed up as realism.

    Encapsulating this were the very final words from the panel: “I’m afraid Thomas Malthus was probably right”. What a choice that is from a respected figure of authority in science, to end by referencing 18th century predictions of mass starvation caused by population growth… rather than to end with a call to action that scientists try everything we [responsibly] can to intervene in today’s unfolding climate and ecological catastrophes.

    

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    A figure from my infographics deck, based on the typography established by Lamb et al. mapping the most common narratives used to delay climate action. 

    

    As anticipated there were also plenty of criticisms of activism and activists e.g. that disruptive action is counterproductive, that by taking action using our scientist identities that we’re implying we are somehow superior etc etc, which I at least felt we were able to push back on at the time***. But in doing so we didn’t have the opportunity to give the wealth of constructive contributions and questions from the rest of the audience the airtime they deserved.


    The constructive questions


    I've felt heartened by the many positive and supportive interactions that were also part the event and its aftermath. These came from a broad range of representatives across science and policy, many of whom were keen to share how their own views did not align with the ones I have described here as harmful. Conversations about various experiences trying to create change within different roles, workplaces and contexts have continued throughout the week and I'm grateful for the new connections, insights and potential collaborations this has sparked. Some of the questions raised that I would have loved there to have been more discussion of at the event itself related to themes like:


    🚧 How to address structural barriers to scientists participating in activism

    This would have been a great opportunity to talk about the various issues affecting the science and education sector and how they might be overcome in ways that enable climate and social action as well as benefitting research and scientists themselves, drawing on the ideas such as the academic doughnut and work around how universities etc can facilitate advocacy and activism.


    🛡️ How mounting attacks on, and declining trust in, science can be countered

    The societal and political drivers of this are complex and something scientists are often quite naive to, but they are crucial for us to grapple with and confront. Emerging insights from scientists who have had to deal with such attacks for a long time (e.g. climate researchers, vaccine advocates etc) feel especially valuable to learn from here. 


    🤳 How scientists can interface more effectively with the media and the public

    News content around the Emergency has long been problematic, and as the crisis gets more severe, coverage appears to be declining in both volume and quality. Meanwhile climate misinformation on social media is surging. Debunking myths is an important skill but ‘innoculation’ against disinformation is perhaps an even more important work that scientists can be involved in too. I wrote about what I think makes effective Emergency science communication recently here, but ultimately actions speak louder than words, which is a huge part of our case that scientists be bolder and more visible as activists. 


    ✨ Leadership and role modelling from scientists and their institutions

    This could have been an opportunity for rich discussion on how research institutes can transform to rise to the challenges of our times, and to talk about the behaviour change research on leading by example, (e.g. in low-carbon transitions). 


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    Photographs from the during the event (left) and afterwards with some of my favourite 'responsible science activists' (right). 

    

    Personal Reflections


    Across the breadth of the scientific community we do have common ground: we recognise climate and ecological breakdown as serious threats and that current action is insufficient. What constitutes appropriate and responsible, productive actions is nuanced and was always going to generate some disagreement…. but I was much less troubled by this than I was by what felt like a palpable lack of collective urgency and commitment to transformative action. Most concerning to me was where harmful - not to mention inaccurate, misleading and/or and unevidenced - delay narratives were coming from: the proponents of these ideas were scientists currently or previously in leadership roles within academic institutions, learned societies and/or policymaking. And they were some of the loudest, most confident and most influential voices in the room. 


    I’m left questioning more deeply than ever the role of our institutions and those chosen to lead them. Most have undeniably positive intentions - my former workplace aspired to be a “University for Public Good” whilst the Royal Society positions itself as proponent of science “for the benefit of humanity”. They could be playing a key role in informing and enabling necessary, systemic changes… but as a result of embedded resistance to adapting and evolving as the world around us profoundly changes, how many are doing more harm than good? 


    At the end of National Emergency Briefing in November, Prof Mike Berners-Lee urged senior figures in politics to be truly honest with themselves, and to step aside if they weren’t up to the job of leading with integrity and courage in the knowledge of how much danger we are all in. If we want our scientific institutions’ aspirations to translate into impact, I think we should be bringing this ultimatum to their leaders too. We can’t yet rely on our institutions - nor can we afford to wait for them - to change by themselves. To unlock their potential we have to apply pressure strategically, working in collaboration with the allies we find both within and on the outside of them. And as we do this, there are so many opportunities to contribute our skills as scientists in every movement and every community that needs them.  


    * Polls and studies repeatedly show that concern remains high about environmental issues, that the vast majority of the UK want stronger climate action, and that willingness to take various forms of action is widely underestimated


    ** To list but a few examples ”climate-related disasters forcibly displaced 250 million people globally over the past decade”, “hundreds of millions of people are unable to safely go about their daily lives at the hottest times of the year”, “costs of heatwaves, droughts, and floods across the EU in summer 2025 reached €43 billion and could climb to €126 billion by 2029”, “climate change-induced food price shocks are on the rise leading to malnutrition, political upheaval and social unrest” … with the severity and range of all such impacts escalating all the time. 


    *** See Charlie’s opening address for a snapshot of the evidence for the power of social movements and disruptive protest, as well as research on the ‘radical flank’ effect. In the recording Jeff and I both respond to why we choose to identify ourselves as scientists in the course of our activism (and it's not that we think we are superior!)

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    When Head meets Heart

    Pro-environmental choices are often framed as “sacrifices” but there is power and peace in aligning our actions and values. 


    Surrounded by chatter about making resolutions and by advertisements for all the ways a “new you!” can be purchased as a new year begins, I'm prompted to think about what has actually brought me closer to being the kind of person I aspire to be. Spoiler: the significant things haven’t been any products I’ve bought nor any new pursuit I’ve started specifically in the name of self-improvement. Instead, the slow, ongoing personal process of working out how to respond to a world on fire has been unexpectedly revealing.    


    This past year cinemas, academic institutes and community groups around the country have been hosting screenings of Plan Z, a short film that captures the motivations of scientists (including myself) who have become climate activists. It’s often shown alongside complementary documentaries about how we respond to the Emergency we find ourselves in - whether that’s climate denial, anxiety and/or action.  I’ve repeatedly found myself thinking back to a specific moment from one of those films: it’s a moment where a student activist reflects on a protest where they’d climbed on top of an oil tanker and been arrested. They describe an unexpected sense of peace - and a relief from the often overwhelming anxiety they were accustomed to - in ‘doing something tangible’, in spite of how terrified they felt taking that action. 


    This student’s seemingly paradoxical response - to experience calmness in an unfamiliar, high stress, high intensity situation - has started to sound familiar to me. Several of the authors in our book Scientists on Survival allude to something like it.  I’ve felt it myself too. In today’s world, many ‘normal’ ways of going about life conflict with values that many-if-not-most of us hold dear. It can feel impossible to do the ‘right thing’ and I often struggle encountering this in seemingly trivial daily decisions. So at those times where we act in certain ways that might look rash or radical, maybe that feeling of relief isn’t so strange. 


    When I worked in academia I found some of these conflicts - the clashes between our stated aspirations and the realities of how we were going about pursuing them - particularly stark. Essentially I found the experience of studying a dying world in the knowledge that we were further endangering it in the process paradoxical and deeply uncomfortable*. I worked in settings where we incinerated kilos of contaminated single-use plastics every single day, where flying halfway around the world for a few days at a conference was considered a perk of the job, and where an increasing proportion of our research was financed and influenced by some of the most destructive organisations (or billionaires) on Earth**. If questioned, these kinds of behaviours were swiftly justified as necessary for, or simply an accepted and acceptable part of, advancing human knowledge… as if it wasn’t relevant that the foundations that’d allow any benefits of that knowledge to be realised (stable climate, intact biosphere, functioning societies) are crumbling. 


    Having left academic science behind with a heavy heart,  I thought I’d feel envious of other researchers who could handle the contradictions I had tried and failed to reconcile. But whilst I did (and still do) feel some loss about the career and identity I stepped out of, the stronger sense has been one of relief. The extent to which mental gymnastics had sapped my energy and self-esteem only really became clear once I no longer needed to perform them. Lifting that weight, even though it meant inviting more uncertainty and risk into my daily life, has been freeing. We all have different levels of comfort in breaking with conventions and expectations, as well as different vulnerabilities to the associated repercussions.  But I also think that more of us than we might realise would benefit on a personal level from doing so. Psychologists use the term “cognitive dissonance” to describe the often-severe discomfort we experience when holding conflicting ideas in our heads, whereas one aspiration of therapy is to foster “congruence” or harmony between how we see ourselves and how we live our lives. To me this speaks to the value of resolving the incompatibilities between our values, our identities and our actions wherever we can. 


    The realities of our imperilled world do not make aligning our actions with our values straightforward…but where we can do so it stands not only to make positive ripples but also to bring us joy as well as relief in the process. The narrative that acting more sustainably or ethically inherently involves sacrificing your happiness is a powerful one, but it’s often wrong. You can see this in the testimonies of people who have shifted their approach to food or travel, you can see this in the stories of activists who find purpose and community in pushing for change. The idea that evolving in line with our ideals is a noble but ultimately futile and joyless endeavour needs to be challenged, now more than ever. One simple way we can do this  - and one resolution I can commit to this year - is to notice, celebrate and share the pleasure and peace we experience as we take the plunge. 




    *I’ve touched on this in a previous post and in the concluding paragraphs of a review article I co-wrote, and recommend this perspective article about the underlying social and psychological factors that allow this ‘double reality’ to exist in academia


    ** I frequently saw research funded by or conducted in partnership with fossil fuel companies, militaries or weapons manufacturers, agribusiness giants etc, or billionaire’s foundations (Gates, Bezos or Musk) when I worked in the environmental or biological sciences. See the work of the Mapping Fossil Ties project (for example) for why these relationships, however attractive they may seem in a challenging and competitive research environment, are so problematic.


    Cover image credit: Paul Kelly, York, UK